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Thursday, May 20, 2010

Time to move on

It's time to move on again. This is the 5th time I am moving in the last 8 years. This time we are saying good bye to Seletar Springs, the place where my 2nd child, Danica, was born. This place will forever have a special place in my heart. It's like a breaking up with someone and never getting over it but you still some how manage to move on in life.

I love this place. I can't explain it but there is something about it that draws you and captivates you. We are off to Sunrise Close just 3 traffic lights or 3.2km away from Gerald Drive where we are currently at. I hope that as we move on to a bigger home, we will create new memories and I will find another special place in my heart for it. We start renovations and packing in the next couple of weeks, I pray that all goes smoothly and the children settle in nicely. It's not a nice feeling when it's bedtime and you are left wondering, why are we not home yet mummy?

On a lighter note, I hope I don't have another child in the process of moving this time round. Wahahahahahhaa...the last 2 times I shifted I was pregnant! Sigh! Talk about bad timing, both of my children were conceived just after we signed the paper work to buy the last 2 properties. I tell you having morning sickness and vomiting all day long but still had to pack and look after another child, not to mention deal with contractors that gave me contraction on a daily basis was no joking matter. Thank goodness so far so good, we get our keys in 2 weeks and I am NOT pregnant at the moment.

Goodbye, Seletar Springs, one day when the time is right, I will return to this great great place I once called home.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Happiness and Me

If happiness is something that someone gives you, it also means that happiness can be taken away from you. However if happiness is something you give yourself, you will be a happy person. Off course I am not saying that you will never feel other emotions like anger and sadness. But rather you will be able to walk with a bounce in your gait and wake up feeling life is great.

Happiness starts from being happy about smallest things in life. Sounds too simple.

Happiness is a state of mind that reflects your perspective on life. It is not to be confused with the feeling you get when you purchase something and the sudden rush of endorphin that surges through your brain which is mostly temporal.

I have decided that I will be a happy person and I give thanks for everything that I have. But the key for me to happiness is the removal of resentment. Resentment can eat you alive. It can destroy you.

It took me 36 years to realise that I if I resent others for my situation in life, I will forever be miserable.

Happiness to me is the knowing that I have someone to count on and rely on what I am feeling down. I do not dwell on our differences and I look forward to making up after a fight. But the most amazing thing is I don't expect him to change one bit not for me not for anyone else.

Happiness to me is having great friends to share special moments, I celebrate our diverse personalities and accept them with all their idiosyncrasies and respect their way of life.

Happiness is waking up and knowing that my children loves me and needs me, yet I also look forward to the day where they are independent and ready to take flight.

Happiness is looking forward into the future even though I have no idea what it brings, embracing it one day at a time. Good or bad I know I will learn something from it.

Happiness is being at peace with myself and accepting me for who I am, knowing my limitations and recognising my flaws as a human being.

Happiness is knowing that I am responsible for my own Happiness and I have what it takes to sustain me when everything else fails.