poo.pee.tantrums.tears.laughter.going insane.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Birthday Wish

Today is my birthday and I do not wish for diamonds or gold. Instead I wish that my child would recover and go back to her normal happy chirpy self. She has been sick for the last 5 days. Fevers that run continuously at 39.8 degrees C, hacking coughs through the night on the hour, congested nasal passages and 2 molars erupting at the back of her mouth.

She has been on a liquid diet for the last 5 days, because her gums hurt. She refuses to drink any milk that is warm because it causes pain.

I would give anything in the world for her to recover this instant minute so that she doesn't have to suffer the way she is suffering right now.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

3 nights in Bangkok and 3 nights of misery

22 May 2007
I send Letitia to my parents' home spend a couple of hours with her and got my mother to settle her down for bed. Hubby and I sneaked out to Jalan Kayu for a Teh Tarik and decided that we should go back and check on Letitia before we headed home.

Got home at almost midnight. Couldn't sleep all night. Thinking about my baby.

23 May 2007
Felt like crap. Didn't sleep a wink last night. Got to the budget terminal. CULTURE shock. No not the simplicity of the decor and the lack of shopping. The among of strange people you find in a budget terminal is just shocking. You have bus loads of loud Chinese tourist taking pictures of the runway. Vietnamese brides on their way home accompanied by their not so young husbands. Young really young people in their teens.....wearing shorts, slippers and carrying pillows on board. Honeymooners travelling for the first time together. And off course cheapos......

Arrived in Bangkok. Bloody cab driver took us for a ride. What a great start to my vacation. We were starving so we headed to MK for lunch. After lunch I saw a treat that I couldn't resist, even though I knew that I would probably fall sick from indigestion after eating it. I swallowed one plate of Mango sticky rice. True enough... I had indigestion. My stomach doesn't seem to be able to handle glutinous rice but its just too delicious. So eat first deal with the pain later.

Did the usual MBK walk. But the best bargains of the day was found in Tesco! Yes! The British chain store. They have a branch about 5 mins walk from National stadium BTS stadium. They sell really cheap and decent quality children's' apparel and foot wear. I spent about 1500baht which is about $50 sgd on 2 dresses, a pair of pants, 2 tops and a pair of slip-ons for Letitia. HAPPY!

24 May 2007
Buffet breakfast. OH how I hate them! So much yummy food around. I must have stuffed my face silly cos I felt like a cow after breakfast. Ate about 3 times more than I should have. By the way I cried at breakfast today, cos I called Letitia, I just broke down at the sound of her voice. "Hi! Mummy!" BOOO HOOO..................ridiculous. About 50 stared at me!!!!

36 degrees outside.......Walked from Pathumwan Princess to Siam Discovery Centre, to Siam Center, to Siam Paragon, to Central world, to Big C.......Dying....Decided that we needed to have a session of foot reflexology. Just as I was drifting off into lala land and enjoying my 280 baht massage, a group of about 30 Hong Kongers blasted into the parlour and turned it into a fish market......Crap.....the massage was good but I think the woman was a bit too strong. BECAUSE I HAD BRUISES at the back of right calf and its still there NOW!

Next stop Platinum Mall. Its like Argyle Centre in Hong Kong just more spacious. But they pretty much sell cheap women's clothing. But I got adventurous and decided to trade my perfectly manicured french nails for a machine printed nail art. COST 99 baht. WILL NEVER EVER DO IT AGAIN. looks like crap and takes forever.

Hubby disappeared and went to Pantip Mall. I waited.......

I had the best tasting Korean food for dinner. The Korean restaurant in the hotel that we were staying is supposedly to the best in Bangkok. I don't know much about Korean food but it was sure yummy. The appetisers were so delicious. I ate nothing but appetisers all night long. Oh....It was a buffet.

25 May 2007
Buffet Breakfast again! I don't know how much of this buffet thingy I can take. I was still trying to digest dinner from last night.

Today was phone hunting day. Today was also gastritis day. The tom yam goong and assam fish and chili padi has finally gotten the better of me. I was in pain..........DAMN ACUTE PAIN.

26 May2007
GLAD to be home. BUT...HA.....knowing my ass luck. Letitia got bitten by mossies while she was at my parents. One on her butt check and 2 on her legs. The one on her butt was so inflamed and red her right buttock was significantly bigger than the left. The ones on the legs..............HA..............had become inflamed and blistered. There was a bubble that was the size of pea sticking out of the bite.

That night she decided to give me a welcome home present by vomiting in bed. Milk 240ml and dinner all came out undigested and warm. 2 hours later and Letitia is asleep. I am in the toilet washing bedsheets and blankets. I passed out that night.

27 May 2007
FEVER! 39.6 degrees. Letitia woke with a raging fever. Nothing I did could bring the temperature down. I did everything. DID NOT SLEEP!

28 May 2007
Still having fever! Tantrum! Whine! Cry! Refuses to do anything. Wants to be carried. Everything must be done her way.

29 May 2007
Fever finally gone. What caused the fever? WHO KNOWS! Hopefully I will finally get some sleep tonight. I think its her way of punishing me for leaving her behind and going on a holiday.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Kitchen Pass

For the first time in almost 2 years I am going on a vacation without my daughter. The thought of flying away for 4 days excites me and at the same time saddens me. As much a I really need a break from it all. I can't help feel that I am a such a horrible mother. I am actually leaving my helpless child that is so dependent on me. Leaving her Alone for 4 whole days to fend for herself in her grandparents 3 storey "castle"! Where she can knock herself out climbing the stairs, run after my parents dog, eat all the rubbish that I won't let her eat and not to mention be spoilt rotten with treats and toys that my parents will probably buy for her.

Okay, I am ridiculous. But the last time I was away from her I cried! I cried the entire journey from Singapore to London. I cried every night for 2 whole weeks. I called my mother 3 times a day just to check on her. Not much of a vacation of you ask me. But that was almost 2 years ago, when she was just 6 months old. She didn't really know what was going on.

I hope I survive my Bangkok holiday without shedding a tear. I know that she will be well taken care off and that she will probably be fine for 4 days. But it's such a sad thing for a 2 year old child to find her mummy gone. It is going to be so heart wrenching for her at bed time when her mama is not not around to tuck her into bed and hold her little hands till she falls asleep.

But wait a minute......I remember a couple of weeks ago when we were in Hong Kong, she refused to come back to our room. She spent every night sleeping with her grandparents.

I am sure she is going to have a blast. I just hope that I have a blast too. So I am going to try and enjoy my 4 days kitchen pass because it only comes once every 2 years.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Under the weather

I have been feeling a little under the weather the last couple of days. My nose is running and I sprained my shoulder. Not going to dwell on how I sprained my shoulder but you can bet that it was because of a little girl called Letitia.

Today she gave me a really hard time. She fell from the sofa twice today. The first time she rolled off the sofa and landed on the back of her head.

The second time she winded herself because she fell flat on her tummy. The horrible thing is she doesn't seem to remember the pain she felt after about 2 minutes and she jumping on the sofa again.

During dinner she was playing with a toy mobile phone. She was swinging the thing around it landed right into her pumpkin porridge. Oh man! I lost it.

I am still having heart palpitations at the moment.......and what is she doing. She is colouring!